According to Miriam Webster perfection means “the state or condition of being perfect”. Perfect is defined as “having no mistakes or flaws”. In my opinion perfection is a façade! I don’t believe in it, especially when it comes to Humans. We are Human Beings we are not perfect.
Yesterday, I applied for a job via email; I addressed the contact by the wrong name. I am not perfect; I am going to make mistakes. Yes, I realize this is a horrible first impression to make (trust me; you aren’t thinking anything that hasn’t already crossed my mind). She responded to my email and called me out on the error. She mentioned my experience and skills were great, but basically that human error while understood, was not accepted (these were not her exact words, but this was implied by her exact words <I had a non-biased friend read the email and she was in agreement>). At first I was mortified; I mean I need to find a job soon! I then began thinking about what my reply should like – should I reply and own it and try to convince her I am impeccable with details? Do I just delete the email and move on?
I slept on it. And I realized I am not perfect! And, I am OK with that! I knew if I moved forward in the process with this company I would never let this go, I would hold on to it & it could possibly hinder my performance. I was also afraid she would never forget this mistake, after all this was my first impression. Then, I realized I don’t want to work somewhere that demands perfection! Do not misinterpret this: I want a job! I am willing to be held to high standards! But, I am not willing to set myself up to fail! I will not put myself in an environment that will (further) harm my work confidence!
I am damn proud! 1 – I am proud that I didn’t make a fear based decision, I didn’t come from a place of desperation, I put my true personal needs first, not my fiscal needs! 2 – I recognized a potential unhealthy situation (for me) and I stood up for myself! 3 – I think it finally truly hit me that it IS OK not to be perfect!
I have a very good friend who went through a journey of realizing it is OK to be who you are and not strive for perfection. I am so grateful that she shared her journey with me; her helping herself in turn helped me too! I love seeing an impact like that! THANK YOU (you know who you are)!
I am thinking back to the 4 Agreements (a must read book by Miguel Ruiz), and I realized when I was sending that email I was NOT “always doing my best”. I had several tabs opening reviewing several job descriptions, the construction guys were here replacing the windows and making tons of noise. Bottom line it was not the ideal situation and I should have exerted more effort to stay focused. I am not making excuses, I am holding myself accountable.
Bottom line this position was not a fit for me and I was reminded of the 4 Agreements in the process. Moving forward I will make sure I remember to always do my best!
I think I really need to make it a priority to quiet my mind and meditate once or twice a day. I really need to re-engage my inner focus! My mind has been working triple overtime since March!