I haven’t blogged in a while. Since the launch, I was on a roll of regular blocking. Lately – not so much. Why? Nothing to say? Too much to say? Too many thoughts happening at once (this is very possible). I am honestly not sure.
I have not really felt like “myself” lately. There is a lot going on. As you know I lost my job in March, and I don’t (yet) have a new job. To say this is a major stress is putting it lightly. BUT there have been pretty major wins in this area! I am not trying to be cryptic, but I am not yet ready to share all details. But there are good things ahead in the very near future. I am over the moon excited.
Still, I don’t feel like me, it is really hard to explain. Could it be that I am a new and improved version of myself? Has this amazing yet terrifying journey changed me (for the better)? I honestly have no idea. I feel strong, and empowered and so grateful; yet I still feel “off”.
I am in a state of gratitude; I am on an up-swing and I do have a lot to be grateful for (I will share soon <no, I am not pregnant or engaged YET>). After a long period of major darkness I made it through! I have a renewed faith in God and in myself! I have a stronger sense of my strength (I won’t lie I think I am pretty bad ass). But, I still feel slightly “off”.
It is ironic; I feel my strength but I don’t see it. Crazy, huh? Some of my close friends have said I am “resilient”, “dynamic”, “strong”, “unstoppable”, and “resourceful”. Yet, there are times when I don’t feel any of these, but, there are times when I feel invincible! It is kind of crazy!
It has been a somewhat challenging week; my focus has been shared with many different areas and my brain is overwhelmed. I have not slept well this week and I am exhausted mentally and physically. But, I am still hustling and pushing through.
Ok, well I really feel this blog was more a vent than anything of actual substance. So thanks for listing (well, reading).
Here is to the next chapter and possibly redefining myself; that could be what this is about. Send your positive vibes, your faith in me and some energizing vibes! THANKS!!