2015 is HERE! That means 2014 has come to an end! I can’t say that I am sad to see it go!
2014 has been the most challenging year OF MY LIFE! I thought 2007 was the worst year of my life, but 2014 sure did take the cake! BUT on the positive side I SURVIVED!
I was unemployed for 9 out of the 12 months of 2014! It still seems so surreal. Despite the financial stress, the journey was AMAZING and I wouldn’t change a thing about it!!
During my unemployment phase I met some of the most amazing people ever! I had life changing experiences and my mind was opened to new thoughts and desires!
There were literally a few months where I had no idea if I was going to be able to pay rent. I was forced to think about the very real possibility of having to leave my home and try to figure out what that looked like: do I move to a beach, find a roommate, do I sell all of my furniture and live in my car, do I get rid of everything and move in with a friend, could Gateau come, do I just give up and not get out of bed? And let’s not forget the motel living due to the “rain event” aka construction negligence! These are things I honestly would not wish upon my worst enemy! But there were also amazing times! Times where I was introduced to new people, experiences and desires! Times of pure bliss, times of self discovery, time spent cultivating amazing friendships.
Other than the dire financial stress, I would not change a thing about my journey! I strengthened my Faith and took major steps to rebuilding my relationship with Jesus; including getting baptized in my new Church. I have made business relationships that have literally changed my life! And I have made new friendships that have rocked my world! And I joined a LifeGroup (code for Bible study) and I can’t imagine my life without the amazing people in it! And this is a high level overview!
I feel super blessed to have had these 2014 experiences! I know I am not the same person who started 2014; I am stronger, more compassionate, more Faithful, and humbled. I am still getting to know the new/real me and exploring who she is! My therapist said sometimes when you go through something “like this” it brings out the real you – this was her response when I said “I don’t feel like myself”.
I have learned that I truly do have a heart of service; giving back and paying it forward is so important to the real me. I learned I have more Faith that I ever gave myself credit for. I learned to break through my ego (even when I didn’t think I had one). I have discovered I have some social anxiety (shocking, I KNOW! I am hoping this passes ASAP!). I learned that “the system” is really broken! I learned my guilty pleasure is mid day cocktails! I have learned that I do have an AMAZING support system. I have learned that family is not always blood. I have learned that I am resourceful! And I learned that I am resilient!
There were some very, very, dark times in 2014. And, I have never felt darker. But I also take pride in knowing that I kept a positive as much as possible. And I take MAJOR pride in the fact that I never gave up! I kept fighting the fight! I kept showing up.
I am ecstatic that my year ended on such a high note! I am so relieved I found a job before the end of the year! I am even MORE relieved I don’t have to commute in this crazy SoCal traffic! And I am so thankful I can wear yoga pants to work!
Thank you to everyone who was part of this crazy, intense journey! Thank you for the support, the hugs, the cocktails, and the tissues to wipe the tears!
I am really excited for 2015! I KNOW it is going to be another game changing year, but in a positive way! I have a LOT of plans for this year, and I am very overwhelmed (in a good way) by everything I want to accomplish. If I learned anything this year it is “I CAN DO IT!”.
Bring on 2015! I’ve got this!!