Do you believe in Miracles? I absolutely do! I believe in miracles both HUGE and small!
As most of you know, I am a self proclaimed “Jesus Freak” – I LOVE ME SOME JESUS! I have a tremendous amount of faith. I see miracles big and small everyday! I mean your life along is a miracle in itself!
About 2 weeks ago I had a major (yet common) surgery on my neck. The discs in my neck were compressing my spinal cord, so they went in through the front of my neck by throat and installed some of my hip bone and some metal and screws. I forget the official name, maybe a bone graph? Anyway, I am not bionic and still badass! The entire journey of the pre-op is amazing, God was with me every single step of the journey! Even in mid 2017 before I knew I needed surgery! Looking back I can see why certain things worked out or didn’t work out as everything led to me to the surgery (God is just so amazing).
I interviewed a few surgeons and just knew the surgeon I chose was right as soon as he walked into the room and I felt a tremendous peace and calm take over me. I barely even cried during my visit with him (I balled hysterically with other surgeons)! I didn’t even feel the need to ask if he believed in God, I was so overwhelmed with peace (YES, this is a question I asked other surgeons!).
Fast forward to the surgery prep, (about 2 weeks before surgery). I was calm cool and collected! I had a plan and many lists of things I needed to purchase and to do before the surgery. During this time I was totally overwhelmed with peace and calm, however my brain itself was on overdrive, but my body had peace and calm running through it. It was such an amazing feeling! I was truly blessed with clarity and friends’ amazing suggestions that enabled me to truly prepare for the big day!
I had many conversations with my surgeon and his team about needing to be drugged before they took me into the OR as I knew I would not go willingly and I would be super nervous (I have had other minor surgeries and procedures and needed “happy drugs”).
Well, the night before surgery I was again totally overwhelmed with peace and calm. I had an AMAZING night’s sleep! And woke up refreshed and ready to tackle the day!
The ENTIRE time before surgery I was calm and joyful! I was totally myself and happy and making jokes with the nurses and hospital staff. I was 110% calm and I had this amazing PEACE flowing through my veins. It was an incredible feeling. When we prayed with my surgeon he squeezed my hand so tight and his eyes teared ever so slighting. It was simply amazing how I could feel Jesus’ presence the entire day! Needless to say I didn’t need any drugs, I was calm and peaceful as the wheeled me into the OR! I was even making jokes as we were in the OR!
To me this is the true definition of a miracle! I know myself, and I know how anxious I have been for other surgeries which were minor. This was a MAJOR 4-5 hour surgery! God is so amazing, and I feel so blessed that I literally FELT Him every single step of my surgery journey.
Now onto the recovery phase! It has been a little over 2 weeks since surgery, recovery is SLOW and PAINFUL, yet I do see small progress along the way and I feel truly blessed. I know God is in control and I am not worried about what is to come in the future. Heck, I am not even super upset about the Frankenstein scar on the front of my neck (though I did just order a bunch of scarves online to keep it protected from the sun!).